You don't have to share what you don't want to, but based on what you have already shared you seem pretty stressed out in general and I'm suspicious the self-deprecation you're doing to yourself is deserved. Since it's making you nervous about Mallory already, you might want to go get checked out by a therapist. Tulpas are great and all but they ain't therapists
No therapists, and actually sharing this may help, im an all around manipulator, even at 8 years of age I still manipulated people with ease for my own advantage, to this day I find it hard to trust my own judgement for that reason, and just yesterday I learned that manipulating people to help themselves is also wrong, which I had been doing to try to help people learn things they struggled with. I'm only 15 I cannot go to a therapist by myself and I really don't want my family to know, all I wanted from this was a good friend and I got two best friends (Mallory and the only person I told about her) and a lot of friends from here.
~Moonlight~
No therapists, and actually sharing this may help, im an all around manipulator, even at 8 years of age I still manipulated people with ease for my own advantage, to this day I find it hard to trust my own judgement for that reason, and just yesterday I learned that manipulating people to help themselves is also wrong, which I had been doing to try to help people learn things they struggled with. I'm only 15 I cannot go to a therapist by myself and I really don't want my family to know, all I wanted from this was a good friend and I got two best friends (Mallory and the only person I told about her) and a lot of friends from here.
here is a description I found from another server:
There are many versions of you that exist, and for every decision you make there is a different you. The same goes for every moment that has taken place in the universe, resulting in many different outputs.
And yes, that means somewhere out there you are doing whatever you can imagine right now, in a universe that could have entirely different physics.
The idea of reality shifting is that you can shift your awareness to any one of these versions (of your consciousness) that you desire to experience.
sorry for not being able to describe it on my own, I'm as unfamiliar about it and I don't want to ignorantly explain it
KiTTiKaTTy( •̀ .̫ •́ )✧
afaik reality shifting is how you shift the perception of the external world, while wonderlanding is purely internal, imagination
Lucilyn: maybe if you're new to learning possession or switching, or focusing too hard (like making blood run through your head)(edited)
6:11 PM
but otherwise no
6:12 PM
fronting doesn't define anything on its own btw, it's an umbrella term, you should specify what exactly you're doing when asking about "fronting"(edited)
Reisen
fronting doesn't define anything on its own btw, it's an umbrella term, you should specify what exactly you're doing when asking about "fronting" (edited)
Lucilyn: well I wouldn't say it should make you dizzy, but we personally got tired really quickly when we first started switching and it only went away when we switched back with our host, so maybe some similar things like that could happen for someone(edited)
6:26 PM
but that still went away for us gradually as we spent more time practicing being switched, idk the exact timespan but between a couple weeks and a couple months before we never experienced that tiredness again (+ could go to sleep switched and wake up still switched)
For our switching experience, it depends on how much we dissociated during our switching ritual. Sometimes we feel really zoned out and a bit dizzy, sometimes not at all. Most of the time we don't feel super dizzy
is the first time switching worse than the rest? for me it was very suddenly abrupt and a bit shocking for me to have switched with kelly randomly that one time(edited)
A first switching experience can be heightened by expectations and excitement. I know some people felt their first experience felt more "magical" for lack of better words. I can't say the same for my first intentional switch or even my first accidental switch. I can however say my first switch with our eyes open was magical feeling, but when we did it a second time it just wasn't the same
Lucilyn: but yeah most random things that occur when switching are either placebo or a result of you like messing with your body on accident (focusing too hard and etc.)
shaking when switching is cringe(edited)
Lucilyn: but yeah most random things that occur when switching are either placebo or a result of you like messing with your body on accident (focusing too hard and etc.)
shaking when switching is cringe (edited)
placebos always wave massive flags that say 'HEY! I'M A PLACEBO!'
7:44 PM
so you're right to assume that if it didn't 'feel' like a placebo, it 100% cannot be a placebo
7:45 PM
and you should 100% always trust your feelings in tulpamancy, so you can end up like those people that 'feel' like their tulpa hates them or doesn't want to talk to them and it impedes their progress
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